It was a scary night; we could hear the horrific sound of the wind blowing our windows. " It's going to rain, I suppose.." " Hmm, it seems so..." I sat by one of the windows watching the sea, where we live near it. " It looks like one of my nightmares..." It was high and we could listen to its angry waves hitting the shore so hard, that it trembled my heart... My family went to the dinning room " aren't you coming? It's time for dinner". " No, thanks. i am not hungry." They left the room and I sat alone with my thoughts. " It describes my feelings ( saying to myself),I could feel your fiercful mind!!" I remembered how it felt the other day, he was so anxious about our meeting ******** "Mum,it's 6 p.m., I'm so late. Where's my coat?" " honey, dont worry, he will wait for you." I ran outside quickly , I didnt think of anything else except our meeting. " Sweety , you forgot to wear your shoes!!" " oh, my God, i'm wearing my slippers!" I ran back threw the slippers away and wore my shoes" Sorry mama, but I don't have time to put them away." It was a beautiful day, the sun was shining its magical rays and the sea was calm as a sleeping baby, kissing with his waves gently the shore. He was standing by the restaurant waiting for me with a red boquet." These are for me...Thank you......." We went inside and started to ask for the menu, " You look great,I like your hairstyle." My cheeks turned rose as a flower after a long rain" Thank you..." We sat for nearly an hour talking not really realizing anyone around us,as if we were on an island so far away. " Sara, I need to share something with u. i ve been thinking of it quite some time and I think its time for us to get into the next stage." I looked blank and didnt really understand what he wanted to say. He continued" We've been engaged for 2 yrs now and I think 2yrs are more than enough for us to realize that we are meant for another. i love you and I wanna marry you as soon as poissible!!' At a sudden, everything just collapsed around me. I really didnt undertsand why I felt so. I sat quiet and didnt speak. " Sara, so what you think? Do you agree?". I still couldnt speak I thought I would be happy, but I wasnt... " I am not ready ( saying to myself) I am not...I cant..." I kept on eating silently not knowing what to say. He looked at me weirdly" I dont understand, why you are not answering me?" I said calmly " Can we please postpone discussing this issue?" ." As you like......" We continued eating without saying any more words, he drove me home and that was it.. ********* " Sara, arent you coming to eat? Get away from that window, you'll get a cold!" I could hear the waves banging harshly on the shore, i looked at the sae and started to cry " I'm so scared! I couldnt say yes that day, I just couldnt!" . I kept on watching the sea while it was getting higher and higher tide and waves. " Love, is like yourself, sometimes so calm and other so angry... How can I know that not most of the time we'll be like you now??!!" The wind answered back with his strong bang on the window that it pushed me to the floor.." Oh Wind, why you're harsh on me? It's not my fault.." The more I cried , the more the waves got higher and higher than before. "Marriage is just like you, it's not safe. So deep, so terrifying. How can I feel safe, secure, I cant trust you.. No, I dont.. I fear you.. you're cold, dark and angry...You'll always turn on me,You'll always search for a fight and bang your waves upon me!! No, I won't enter your world, I wont....Oh God, why do love makes oneself so. I'm afraid, I have no trust in tomorrow.. buttt, i love himmm.... Buttt,, how can I assure my happiness?!!" Then at that moment, the door was wide open by the wind. It kept on swining back and forth till it was about to break. I ran so fast to close it tightly" even you,aint safe. No matter how many locks you've, no matter how many keys we use.....you're not safe..." I looked again at the window, the tide was so high, it was almost near our home. " Help! Help, someone please.. My daughter is drowning, someone help me!!!" I ran to the door to see what was going on, I saw a little girl trying to swim, but she couldnt. The more she tries, the more the sea pulls her inside.. I ran as fast as I can " Please, help my daughter. She is going to die!!" I jumped into the wave and I asked God for His help out, we were luck and I saved the girl. I thanked God and looked at the sea angrly " What are you doing? What are you trying to say? even that little girl cant be safe with you!!!!" I decided that moment never to go near it again. I refused to enter such a place so deep, forgetting inspite of its deepness I was able to jump into its waves and make it safe... I called my fiancé and cancelled everything " I'm sorry, but I cant marry you." " Why was it something I say?" " No, it has nothing to do with u, it is me." " I dont understand..." " You dont need to, but you need to know that I cant marry you. I wish you the best of luck and may someday you will find a suitable wife." " I cant believe that you're throwing all our love away. you just simply forgot about everything between us and you're letting it go without even a fight!!!" I sat quiet for a moment and cried " I am sorry, but I cant...." I hung up the phone before he kills me with more words. I went to sit again by the window inspite of my wet clothes " I'm afraid.....I'm so sorry my love..." Years passed by and I decided never to get married. i hooked up myself at work and with my family till all my sisters and brothers got married. " It doesnt matter, I will be ok, I still have my mum and dad.." Few years later my dad passed away and after it my mum. I was left alone, no one near me.Evreyone was occupied with his busy life. I went to have a walk by the sea for it was a fine day.Suddenly, I saw him " It cant be.. It's him.. like the last time i saw him..." I was thinking to run into his arms, telling him how sorry I'm for what I've done and ask him to marry me.....but i saw another woman..... He got married and had three kids..They passed by me as if I was invinsible, they were all laughing and talking that they didnt even notice me... I was left alone again with the sea " If I didnt fear you, i would have been with my love now...." I cried till noone could hear me but myself " How could I forgot, That I jumped into you. What have I become now, how could I be such a silly girl?!! Now, it seems there will be noone but you and me..." The end Fiction In many moments in our lives, we fear to face certain things. We create for ourselves a dark closed room and hang ourselves in it. We forget that who relies on God in every movement in his life will be able to make it safe and secured. Dont allow fear to control your life or draw a line for you to walk on. You must believe in yourself and in God foremost. You must always remember no matter how high the sea was or deep, you could jump and swim... Face your greatest fear, unlock the chain, give yourself a chance to prove yourself you can do it, for life is full of adventure that it worth to share....
